When Friendship Suddenly Goes Silent

My dearest friend,

I never thought I’d be writing one of these letters. Not between us. Best friends for what, five, six years now?

But it’s twenty-nine days since my last letter to you, thirty-one days since your last letter to me, three days since I left my last message with your voice mail, and twenty-four hours since I sent my last text message.

Where are you!?

We always laughed at how technology made us roommates, even though we live on opposite sides of the globe. You’d no sooner get a web page idea and my cell phone would start playing that marvelous string waltz you found for me, announcing your text message. We made such a great team; your computer skills and my creative talent.

God, are you sick or lying hurt in a hospital somewhere? Do I need to start checking your hometown online obituaries?

Too much fear, worry, and uncertainty has left me drained, yet I’m restless. I don’t know what else to do. It’s the not knowing what’s happened that’s killing me. So I dig deep inside, grasping for all the joy we’ve shared. Remember how we met? It all started with that question on the seller’s boards. You never did tell me what made you answer my request for help that day.

Please, if you’re not hurt just let me know you’re okay.

I’ve never known anyone I felt so in-tune with. We just kept writing as if we’d always known each other. Definitely kindred spirits, I’d say. And maybe, if past lives really do exist, we’ve been best friends before. Have you ever wondered why some people connect and become bright lights while all the rest just seem like silhouettes moving in and out of our lives?

Was it something I said, something I did or didn’t do?

One of your last letters to me said, “There is so much I’m learning from you. Thank you my friend!” Then why have you suddenly become silent? I re-read my last letter to you and didn’t see anything out of the ordinary, nothing I hadn’t expressed countless times before.

So, what’s going on? Is this the end of a perfectly good friendship?

I’m not a child anymore. I know things don’t last forever. But you were special, we were special, and now you’re breaking my heart. It’s the not knowing whether you’re gone from this world or simply moved on with life without me. I guess our paths were only meant to touch for a little while.

Whatever the reason, know this . . . I’d do it all again.

I miss you.

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